Friday, January 25, 2002

Well, I got my reading again. Yeah, I know, I shouldn't do it before 6 months pass, but what the hell! I've done it before, so whatever. This is not good at all, but a lot A LOT better than the other day. The other day everything was evil, suffering, sickness, HORRIBLE things. Now I'll do t again tomorrow, things may be okay by then^^ Ah well, hope... it's all I can do, hope. Well, here it is. If anybody understands tarot (I read cards, but french cards, not these tarot cards) I'd appreciate any help in understanding stuff. As I still didn't add my contact info to this weblog, you can mail me to misahayes@gmx.net or leave a comment below.

Card:
The Hierophant. Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching. Occult Wisdom.

Position:
1st: The significator. This cards represents you, the querant, either specificly or metaphorically. It can represent many aspects of your personality, including the emotional, the physical, and the spiritual

Card:
The High Priestess: Change, alteration, increase and decrease. Fluctuation for good or for evil.

Position:
2nd: The current environment. Here you will find an indicator of the most crucial aspect of your current situation. If this card refers to a person, that person could be either one closely concerned with the reading or an aspect of yourself

Card:
The Ten of Disks: Wealth. Riches. Completion of material gain and fortune, but nothing beyond. As it were, at the very pinnacle of success. Old age, slothfulness, great wealth, yet sometimes loss in part and later heaviness, dullness of mind, yet clever and prosperous in money transactions.

Position:
3rd: The obstacle. This card shows what is standing in your way. Most often the card is obvious, however, sometimes the card refers to something you may think is desirable. At that point you must reassess your desires and determine if the quest is worthy or if the goal is something better left unattained.

Card:
The Ace of Wands: Force, strength, rush, vigor, energy. It governs according to its nature various works and questions. It implies natural as opposed to invoked force.

Position:
4th: The goal. This card shows what you desire. If the card is confusing then you must discover the aspect of your goal to which the card refers. This card also may suggest that a reappraisal of your goals is in order.

Card:
The Ace of Cups. Fertility. Productiveness. Beauty, pleasure. Happiness.

Position:
5th: The foundation of the current environment. This card is crucial in determining the nature of the current situation. It shows that upon which the current environment is built. It is the base of the piller of the present

Card:
The Two of Wands: Dominion. Influence over another. Boldness, courage, fierceness, shamelessness, revenge, resolution, generous, proud, sensitive, ambitious, refined, restless, turbulent, sagacious withal, yet unforgiving and obstinate according to dignity.

Position:
6th: The past. Here you will see the accomplishments and the battles of the past. The card could also represent something which is still haunting your or unfinished business which still requires your attention.

Card:
The Sun: Glory, Gain, Riches. Sometimes also arrogance, Display or Vanity.

Position:
7th: The immediate future. This card shows what is about to happen to you immediately upon conclusion of the reading. If the card refers to a person then you may confront that person soon. It could represent an aspect of that person, which will be a key to your interaction

Card:
The Nine of Swords: Cruelty. Illness. Suffering. Malice. Pain. Despair. Pitilessness. Suffering. Want. Loss. Misery. Lying.

Position:
8th: The future environment. Since the Tarot shows the complexity of your future, the eighth card is crucial in analyzing your choice of action. This card shows aspects of the future environment which will either help or hinder your quest

Card:
The Tower: Ambition, fighting, war, courage. In certain cases, destruction, danger, ruin, fall.

Position:
9th: The influence of society. This cards shows how your friends and family will affect you in the future environment. If the card is a person then you must determine which person. The card may also suggest an aspect of a person who concerns your quest. If the quest concerns a specific person then this card could represent either that person or someone else who will stand in the way

Card:
The Star: Hope, faith, unexpected help. But sometimes also, dreaminess or deceived hope.

Position:
10th: The challenge. Here, you will find the nature of what confronts you. The card may suggest a key to how you will defeat your enemy and attain your goal. It may also point to a weakness within yourself which you must overcome

Card:
The Three of Wands: Virtue. Power, established force of strength. Realization of hope. Completion of labor, success of the struggle. Pride, nobility, wealth, power, yet can be conceitful and arrogant.

Position:
11th: The outcome. The future is a blank page waiting for you to write its story and follow its path. Predestination is an illusion based on tendency and predisposition. This card shows a possible future outcome, based on those factors. If it is undesirable you must find a way to avoid it. If it is desirable you must simply follow the course show by the cards. This card is the crown of the piller of the future

Thursday, January 24, 2002

Y ahora me muero de amor si no estás
me muero y no puedo esperar
a que vuelvas de nuevo aqui
junto a mi
Sin tu amor no puedo seguir.

Wednesday, January 23, 2002

-_- Well, it seems all my efforts have been in vain. I guess there's not much left to do or say. I can only hope, and lie to myself until Saturday, but I don't know... I dont like how things are already-_-

Damn it-_-
Oh yes, oh yes!! Era of rebirth is about to start!! *_* I can't wait to play int hat RPG!! It's so so so interesting! There are so many different personalities, and it looks so interesting!! I can't wait!! If you are intersted, I highly recommend that you join this RPG> It's very very promising. Most characters are taken, but Pluto, Thunder knight and some villains still aren't. JOIN! We'll start playing soon^^ By the way, it's a Sailor Moon base RPG, but it takes place in the Roman times. Check the page for more information^^

Also, the baby will be here any moment^^ I better get ready. I can't work on my site now, I have little time, but at least I will download dreamweaver again. My demo expired-_-


Life is fairly pointless to for me. It's a constant cycle of getting captured by Bowser, getting rescued by men who lust after me either due to my looks or wealth, and baking cakes. Any involvement I have in a game is fairly limited. I reinforce the bad stereotype that women are helpless beings. I am made of sugar and spice and everything nice, yet incapable of inteligent thought. Such is the life of Peach.


What Super Mario Bros character are you?

hey, that test was so unfair! i am not such an empty-lifed person (Yeah, I made up that word:P)

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Now this one makes more sense *laughs insanely*

Tuesday, January 22, 2002

Ahhh... *deep sigh* Shopping is definitely relaxing *_* I bought so many things today, and I spent so little money I can hardly believe it! I bought a red handbag, to match my shoes, and a red belt, to match the handbag and the shoes^^; Also, a red shirt with no sleeves which has a spider web in silver at the front (Can you tell that red is on fashion?^^; Oh yes, it is!) Then I bought a T-shirt for my grandpa (I owed him his birthday present>_< I hope he likes it) I bought three books, one for each of my sisters. Then I bought a cologne for my (what shoudl I call her? She's my mother's cousin's daughter) kinda cousin-niece. The cutie is 4!^_^ I haven't seen her since she was 1 and she will be here tomorrow with her mom. I'm so excited! Well, that's basically all I bought, and I have most of my salary intact! I am really happy because of this^_^

Also, I am glad that this week is turning out to be kinda busy! Not so boring days, or so it seems. Tomorrow, the baby is coming, on thursday I'll go to my friend Carina's house to gossip and chat for a while^^ On Friday, I will work on my site and upadte my clique (I got a new submission!!!^____^) And on Saturday... *bites nails* that's the big day.

Luckily, I got paid ALL my salary yesterday. That's so relieving!! Now I can save money to pay for my credit card, go to the cinema to watch Lord of the Rings (It won't be projected till Jan 30th¬¬) and go to Camelot to buy some manga and stuff. Not much, just a cheap Sakura manga volume and a magazine all about Evangelion. I'd like to buy a Sailor Moon manga volume too, but those are kinda expensive, because they come from Spain. So that would be all, plus I'll see one of my college partners I haven't seen in a long time.

So, in a couple of hours I'll go shopping^_^ That will help me cool my head and think of other stuff. It's Tuesday today. I get to watch Friends and that will cool my head too. I'm still a little scared, but not too much. I'll write later to tell what I bought!!^_^

Monday, January 21, 2002

Oh well, this is so NASTY!!!! I am supposed to get paid today (well, actually I was supposed to get paid on the 7th¬¬) And guess what? I check my account and there are only $100!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's not even 1/4 of my salary!!! I hate those politics, I hate them all!!!!!! I hope the rest is in tickets or whatever, or I swear I'll burn the congress in the next cacerolazo. I SWEAR! I'm going to the bank now, THEY BETTER GIVE ME ALL MY SALARY!!!!!
Ahh, what a day! My grandfather turned 75. Happy birthday grandpa, even if you don't have a PC and will never read this, I hope you had a great day with all your family^_^

On the other hand, I am so nervous! It's not that I have to wait a week, it'st his bad feeling I have inside. I wish it's just a week of torture, and not an entire life-_- I hope she says yes. I know I'm crazy, I know I'm really crazy and I probably don't desrve another chance-_- But I need her, cuz I love her, oh I love her so much -_- She's my life, my world, my air, my everything.

"Porque eres tu mi sol
la fe con que vivo
la potencia de mi voz
los pies con que camino.

Eres tu, amor
mis ganas de reir
el adiós que no sabré decir
porque nunca podré vivir... sin ti."

If I knew it's only a week... but I feel it won't-_- I feel she won't change her mind-_- And I am so desperate! Last night, when we talked, I felt she was away. Yeah, somewhere else, like she said-_- But if she jsut let me try to bring her here, that would be enough for me. Why am I so nervous and unsure?-_- I'm praying every night for things to turn out right, for her to say yes and for our love to grow again. She means so much to me. She means eveything to me. Now I know, now I'm sure, more than I ever was-_-

I love you, my love.

Sunday, January 20, 2002

Oh God... what a night-_- I cried so much the hankerchief I got is all wet and useless now. But I guess I stopped crying now, I must be out of tears. I saw her again. It had been a while, and God I missed her-_- It would be too weird to explain everything that happened between us. All I can say is I can see a small light at the end. But it may be just my imagination-_-

I love her, and I want her back-_- But I don't know what will happen.