Awww ~_~ It was so much easier to talk about how wonderful my life is when I was not so tired... I have college on Saturdays too. My fault, I chose the schedule. Why? Well, cuz I can go sleep at a friend's and save money. Hmm... but I am tired now ~_~ And the fact that I am on a diet makes me feel more tired. Hey, I'm really losing weight this time! ^_^ I've no idea about my weight, but I am going to know next week. That's good news, good good news. It feels a lot better to be thin (well, I'm not 'thin' yet) I feel so light! And so good, not eating all that junk I love to eat. I don't have stomachache or anything. It's great^^ I'm not planning to stop for at least another month! I'm not ungry anymore, anyway, so it's not hard. I just gave up on the 2 litres of water per day. Bleh, too much water, me no likes.

And just now my father calls me 'freedy' and ruins my mood. I don't feel like writing anymore. Stupid idiot. 'Greedy'? I don't have money to go to college, I don't have oney FOR THE BUS to go to college, and he calls me 'greedy'. ASSHOLE!!! He didn't give me a damn thing in his whole life, why should I give anything to him? And again, I don't have anything!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!! \_/

Hmmm... okay. So, I think I am going to use this 'thing' I used to use to jot down my thoughts, feelings, etc. Why? Who knows, who cares. I just need it. No, I'm not all depressed again. At least not yet. I want to write about my life here, and honestly speaking, I have a lot of things to thank God for.

I have a loving family, a loving mother who I am 100% sure is the reason why I want to be a mother so badly. She's been an excellent mother, always. She always cares for me, listens to me, worries for me, is happy for me... is proud of me*^^* I can't wait to give my child a mother like that, and God, it's going to be hard!!

I have friends, excellent friends who make me laugh and have a lot of fun. Friends I can talk to about those things I just wouldn't talk with my mother, for X reasons.

I have an awesome job. I am surrounded by loving kids all the time, kids who run to hug me when they see me enter the school in the morning, kids who kiss me and hug me and write sweet letters and make cute drawings for me.

I go to college. This year I started my carreer, being done with the "introductory course". And wow. Just WOW. It's amazing. Everytiing is so interesting... I never want to leave that place! I learn so much every day, every hour. And it's so thrilling and challenging I simply love it. Yeah, give Gemini girls action and challenges.

I could go on all night. I have so much love in me, so much love around me. So many wonderful things, so many wondrful people I love. Why am I saying this? Because today I am happy. I am happy because my granny is still alive, because I can go to college and enjoy my job. I am happy with my life. I am enjoying every wimute of my life. I really am, and it feels so wonderful it makes me want to cry. Because what's life after all? A journey, not a destination. I can't live mourning for the past, I can't live waiting for the future to come. I have to live TODAY, and I have to find the way to be happy TODAY, every minute of TODAY. And I am.

Thanks, God, for all the wonderful things you gave me. I don't care if I don't have a car, a laptop, another pair of shoes, a perfect health or a child (yet) I will always do my best to be better, to do things right and to improve my life in any way I can. And with every breathing in and out I'll be saying :Thank you.